I've failed
I've buried my own self
In a hole filled with fear
Alive, I am
But not awake
I taste the bitterness of giving up
I inhale the vapors of backing down
Surrendering is never a choice
Unless you surrender to love
But to surrender to fear
Is to be stuck
In a haze you can't find your way out of
There is a shackle at my heart
It stops my feet from moving
My hands from writing
My urge to keep going
sitting in a graveyard of potential
Never once transformed to the kinetic
This energy consumes me
And there is a restlessness
That paces around my caged heart
A lion looking for anything but another
False start
Anything but another job undone
Anything other than to put on, only to
Realize it has to give up, a crown
So many of us roam in kingdoms
Of done
Done with trying
Done when it gets hard
Done when nothing happens
Broken & splintered with half-done shards
And we're okay with this
We say oh another day
It wasn't for me
Give up before we could reach our destiny
We walk to crawl and grovel
When right besides us running parallel
Is an unlived life
© L.A. Fraser
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